Hi everyone, today I have a completely spontaneous post that was written and published all in under half an hour. It’s just something I need to get off my chest.
So a few minutes ago I received my Grade 3 violin exam results. I took the exam a month ago, and I was really excited about getting my marks back. I’d worked hard on all my pieces and scales, and although my aural singing in the test had been awful, everything else had gone perfectly to plan.
Just before I continue, I want to give you an idea of the marking scheme in these exams, for those of you who don’t know:
- FAIL: Less than 100 points
- PASS: 100 – 119 points
- MERIT: 120 – 129 points
- DISTINCTION: 130 – 150 points
The exams are graded out of 150.
So obviously I was hoping for a distinction.
As I said, I thought the exam had gone pretty well on the whole, with no slip-ups in my pieces and nothing bad about my sight-reading or anything like that. (Honestly, my singing is always going to be bad in exams. I tried practicing but it just didn’t work out… 😦 )
Then my mum said she’d received an email from my violin instructor.
I was in the middle of watching The Princess Diaries with my parents (my brother was Xboxing, as usual) so we quickly pressed pause on the remote and I sat up straight to hear the results.
She went through my marks in each area, before asking me what I thought I’d got.
I said merit.
She said yes.
The disappointment flooded through me like lava. Honestly, I was so upset and angry with myself. I thought I’d prepared well for this exam… but clearly not.
I asked how many points I’d had exactly.
Only three away from a distinction.
Three marks I could have picked up easily, if only my pieces had gone better (the examiner had obviously thought I was rubbish at them, when honestly (without meaning to brag) I thought I’d done quite well…?).
I’ve dealt with merits before, in other music exams, but I still felt upset. Nothing too major though.
So I finished watching the film, and then headed through to my room to work on my bullet journal and check my blog. That was when my brother came in with my mum, and asked how I’d done on my exam (he’d taken a Grade 2 violin exam and was looking like he wanted to boast to me).
I made him say what he’d got first, obviously (older siblings have power).
I’m of course happy for my brother, pleased he did so well, because he worked so hard on his exam. He practiced loads (if we’re being totally straight, he practiced more than me) and it clearly paid off. So, well done to him ❤
I’m just more upset with myself.
I guess it’s a lesson learned, then. I thought I’d worked hard enough. I thought I knew my pieces upside-down and backwards. I thought I’d get a distinction.
So I’m now left staring at my computer screen. Feeling dumb.
However, I’m going to look at this as a learning opportunity. I’m going to try my best to get over this quickly.
After all, a merit’s pretty good.
Looking back on what I’ve just written, a merit is pretty good.
I’m actually happy with it.
Although it’s not what I wanted, I can definitely live with it. And it’s the perfect motivation to get a distinction in my next music exam (which will be Grade 1 piano in October…!) **wink wink** 😉
So I guess that’s the rant over. Sorry for this post, it was completely unplanned but it was just something I needed to say. If any of you guys have a similar story or can relate this, feel free to talk about it in the comments down below. I’m happy to chat or give advice 🙂
Thank you all for reading, you’ll never know how much I appreciate all of you lovely readers. Your comments and kind words always make my day ❤
Incomplete Thinker xx